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today82
Oct. 25th, 2007
09:56 am - What is wrong with me??
I have just been so all over the map lately. I'm all in my head, and I don't know how to change it. I'm happy and bubbly one minute, then moody and snappy the next. And it's taking it's toll on my relationship. I hate this. I promised my bf I would call my mom tomorrow and talk to her about my recent unhappiness. I want to tell my mom about my ED but I'm scared to. She may make me fly straight home or something drastic like that. I binged and purged tonight again. Super. But I feel much better now that my stomach feels emptier. Ahhhh this shit needs to stop at some point...
Oct. 22nd, 2007
11:34 pm - New Day
So, today is Day 1 of my 28 Day Plan and I'm very excited about hopeful about this. I think the points system will really help motivate me. My bf and I are having some issues right now because of this whole ED thing. He knows about my binging and purging behaviour, but he doesn't really know the degree to which I restrict on a regular basis and has no concept of calories or anything like that. So he figures if he sees me eating (even if it's only vegetables) that everything is ok. But obviously not everything is ok... There's just so much tension between us right now, but i'm hopeful that it will get better. Everything is my fault though, and I just don't know how to fix it...